WHY I AM AFRAID OF WATER delves into a deeply personal exploration of my fear of water, intertwining my experiences with historical and collective memories. Despite having access to swimming lessons—a privilege not afforded to 46% of black people—I remain fearful of the ocean. This fear is contemplated through the lens of intergenerational memory, speculating whether it could be traced back to the traumatic experiences of my ancestors during the slave trade, the segregation of swimming pools, or simply the fear of the unknown associated with navigating the ocean.
I also address the racial disparities in swimming education and opportunities, highlighting how black people were historically barred from swimming in areas designated for white people and the noticeable lack of media representation of black swimmers. This scarcity is evident in my difficulty finding archival footage and images featuring black swimmers, further isolating the community from swimming narratives.
Incorporating a spoken word poem, I reflect on these thoughts and express a desire to overcome this fear of water in the future. The project features a video work that presents archival footage and images in a randomized fashion, emphasizing the theme of water and creating a varied experience for the viewer. This randomness, along with the recurring audio loop of the spoken word piece, enriches the thematic exploration of water and its associated fears.
The installation aims for audience interaction, drawing parallels with playful swimming pool experiences. Envisioned for a large setting, the project involves a sizable basin and an elevated projector to immerse the audience fully. Ultimately, the project is not only a personal journey but also a commentary on a collective sentiment towards water, concluding with a message of hope and possible reconciliation with the fear of water.
